Sugar & Spice & Everything Nice...: The countdown begins...

In just 3 short days, my baby will be ONE. I'm really struggling with this. I can't understand where my year disappeared to. I feel like I haven't gotten enough time with her this year, even though I know I've been with her every day. Her turning one is almost as bad in my mind as me turning 30, which thankfully I have another year before that happens!

I'm sitting here typing this and remembering how just a year ago, I was sooo nervous and so anxious, crying and laughing, ect., just thinking about having this sweet baby. I knew I was ready for her, but at the same time, I wasn't sure that I really was ready. I sat there wondering if I was going to know what to do after she was here, or if I would just fail miserably as a mommy.

Sitting here now, I still have those fears. I think all moms do, especially with the first one. There are days when I have no idea what I'm doing, and am literally just "winging" it. Other days, I am so proud to be a mom, and feel even better when I can give good advice to another new mommy. And then there are the days where she has scratched the heck out of her face, or her eczema has flared up furiously, or I want to lose my cool because she won't stop crying-those are the days I feel like I'm failing miserably. I know that I'm not. Just some days, you can't help but feel that way.

Now on to more happier things lol.

Christmas this year was more fun than any of my past ones. Sophie's first Christmas! She could have cared less about opening presents, but was more interested in what someone else was opening lol. Our living room looks like a toy store aisle on a bad day, but she LOVES all the new things she got! her Laugh & Learn house, zany zoo, and scooter are her favorite go-to toys. We plan on hiding some back in her room, and then swapping them out with the ones in the livingroom every so often. That way she plays with all of them!

I've posted some of our christmas pictures, done by the Lovely Rachael. Rachael has done our pictures from the beginning and I will continue to go back to her. She is amazing with Sophie and a blast to work with! I've also included a few of her birthday pictures as well. I'll have even more for the next post!